Tuesday, June 5

Can you find Happy on this map?

Good morning and welcome to Multiple Personalities Day here in the World of G. It is almost 9 am and I have already gone through at least three massive mood swings this morning. (The first person who even thinks about mentioning PMS will get my foot so far up his a** his breath will taste like Foot Locker water repellent). See? Where the hell did that come from?
OK, yes, I had a kind of scary doctor’s appointment yesterday. I’ve been getting sick a lot lately and my Dr.G sent me to see an auto immune specialist. He took 10 billion gallons of blood, a nice chunk of my paycheck and gave me lists of foods I should be eating and ’10 steps to a stronger immune system’…and told me not to worry, my test results will be back by the end of the week.
My contacts are killing me, so I’m back in the ‘sexy librarian’ glasses. This would not bother me if they weren’t crooked and cracked…doesn’t really complete the look.
There was a knock on my door this morning. It was Friend. He hasn’t been by in nigh on forever and he shows up this morning wanting to be all cuddly and telling me that he missed me. This should have been a huge ego boost but all it did was annoy me. If he missed me so much then where the hell has he been? Hmm? Plus all I really wanted to do was sleep and he wanted to…not. He was actually fine with being turned down and was really sweet but none of that made a difference because I honestly don’t believe anything he says. I wish I could.
This keeps happening. This rampaging ennui…ok- so that’s not really possible, is it? Well, this cloud of whatever will descend. I make some plan to change my life. Then there’s the slow slide back into the rut and then the damn cloud starts forming again. This is NOT what I want. Not that I really know what I do want. Mama G has this saying “You create the life you truly want”. She means that if someone is treating you horribly or you’re doing it to you then some part of you must think that you deserve it, must be seeking it. I don’t know if I agree, but if I find the part of me that wants to be living like this I will kick it’s a**.

5 Comments:

Flynn said...

:S feel better hun... *hug*

WNG said...

One mood never swings...my love for Flynn... flutter...sigh... wistful smile...

His Sinfulness said...

I'll just leave you two alone, then... [heavy sigh]

WNG said...

This is what happens when someone doesn't post for a while...

There's plenty of G to go around! Wait- that didn't sound right...

His Sinfulness said...

No worries - Flynn and I don't do threesomes...

;)